desideratum

Ride →

“I was in the winter of my life, and the men I met along the road were my only summer.

At night I fell asleep with visions of myself, dancing and laughing and crying with them.

Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour, and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times.

I was a singer - not a very popular one,

I once had a dreams of becoming a beautiful poet, but upon an unfortunate series of events some of those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken.

But I didn’t really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it to know what true freedom is.

When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I’d been living, they asked me why - but there’s no use in talking to people who have home.

They have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people - for home to be wherever you lay your head.

I was always an unusual girl.

My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean…

And if I said I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying…

Because I was born to be the other woman.

I belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone.

Who had nothing, who wanted everything, with a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about it, and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me.”


Hollywood’s Dead

Our kind of love
It was once in a lifetime
It couldn’t last
It was doomed from the first time

And you were 50s cool
In blue suede shoes
But it was a cover for all of the trouble
You got into

I always fall for the wrong guy
Things that are bad always taste nice
That’s what girls like me do
Lose you

Don’t tell me it’s over
Don’t tell me it’s over
Hollywood’s dead
Elvis is crying
Vicious in flames
Roland is dying
And in the light you’re sickeningly beautiful
Say goodbye, you’re sickeningly beautiful

This kind of life
Wasn’t meant for the good girl
Try as I might
In the end, it’s a cruel world

And you are living proof
Sinatra aloof
That you were an actor who only went after
The ones who swooned

I always fall for the same type
Gangsters in Vegas on game night
That’s what girls like me like
The limelight

Don’t tell me it’s over
Don’t tell me it’s over
Hollywood’s dead
Elvis is crying
Marilyn’s sad
Hendrix is lying there
In the light you’re sickeningly beautiful
Say goodbye, you’re sickeningly beautiful

If you should go before me then know
That I always loved you
There’s no one above you, baby

Don’t tell me it’s over
Don’t tell me it’s over
Hollywood’s dead
Elvis is crying
Lennon, wake up
Cobain, stop lying there
In the light you’re sickeningly beautiful
Say goodbye, you’re sickeningly beautiful
Say goodnight, you’re so beautiful

Hollywood’s dead
Hollywood’s dead
Hollywood’s dead
Yeah

Hollywood’s dead
Hollywood’s dead
Hollywood’s dead
Yeah
(Cut!)


Video Games

Swinging in the backyard

Pull up in your fast car

Whistling my name

Open up a beer

And you say, Get over here

And play a video game

I’m in his favorite sun dress

Watching me get undressed

Take that body downtown

I say you the bestest

Lean in for a big kiss

Put his favorite perfume on

Go play a video game

It’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you

Everything I do

I tell you all the time

Heaven is a place on earth with you

Tell me all the things you want to do

I heard that you like the bad girls

Honey, is that true?

It’s better than I ever even knew

They say that the world was built for two

Only worth living if somebody is loving you

Baby, now you do

Singing in the old bars

Swinging with the old stars

Living for the fame

Kissing in the blue dark

Playing pool and wild darts

Video games

He holds me in his big arms

Drunk and I am seeing stars

This is all I think of

Watching all our friends fall

In and out of Old Paul’s

This is my idea of fun

Playing video games

It’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you

Everything I do

I tell you all the time

Heaven is a place on earth with you

Tell me all the things you want to do

I heard that you like the bad girls

Honey, is that true?

It’s better than I ever even knew

They say that the world was built for two

Only worth living if somebody is loving you

Baby, now you do